What Is The Word?

What Is The Word?

What is that one quality that describe you the most?
No this is not an interview question for some MBA exam. I really want to write this.

What is that one quality? Do you see that for your life you chose difficult choices to happen and you would say that "Courage" is something that defines you the most. Or is it a simply "Simplicity". What is it ? Is it a random thing like "Rebellion" or is it "Bonhomie". What is it that abstract word that describes you?Your friends might not necessarily agree to it, but this one word is an assurance deep down in your heart that makes you "You". It is your own view of yourself. Finding this word might even guide you through quite a few decisions in your life. Is that word "Love" or is it "unlucky". Are you the one with "Optimism" or the one with "Cynicism". It might be something you dont want to put it out to the world, but you know deep inside. It might be one of your worst fears, it might be "insecurity" and it might be "Confidence" on the other end.

As much as the word would typecast you and put you in a silo, it would make you unique. It gives your character that unique strength that comes out of knowing one's self.

Its quite difficult to deal with this abstract ideas that goes in the realm of psychology and self-search. It doesnt come easily. Neither the search of the word nor the strength to accept it comes easily. It takes you through the difficult confessions and it takes you through your life like going through flashbacks to define yourself. But say now you know what that word is.

That single word, that identifies you the most. That describes you. That quality that makes you stand tall and different. What if, one fine day you see yourself going weak on this quality? What if you "Courage" fails you one day when you need to take a plunge in through a small decision of life? What if your confidence goes weak in its leg as you stand infront of a crowd talking about your best work? What if the rebellion in you starts feeling that the world will remain the same and you will have to change? What if the bonhomous part of you gets a little cynical? It would distrub you. And,I feel, it would disturb you the most. Even a single thing, even a smallthought that affects this one-word abstract quality of yours happens, you would feel disarrayed. You would want to cry, without knowing the reason why. You would feel disenchanted with everything around. You will feel disconnected with yourself. It would bring those moments when in the loneliness of your room, you just stare the roof and you think you are without any thoughts. You are not. Your self concept has been hit. You need to come over it soon. And you need to restore your basic quality. You need to reconstruct "Yourself".

P.S. : I think for me "Patience" is the word. Trying to reconstruct myself:).